Everyone forgets
And nobody sees
How it felt
And what it meant to me
But I remember
And I wont ever forget
Your chance has now gone
And you won't get it back
So remember this moment
And all the hurt that you caused
As your one door opened
The rest flew in tatters to the floor
1. What were you thinking. Did you really think no one would say anything. You both deserve everything coming your way. It is about time someone stood up to you. Justice will be ours.
2. You know not everything is actually about you. We both love you and if you actually took yourself out of your own life for longer than a second we actually might learn to like you as well.
3.You promised but all you were doing is lying. How hard is it...really???? I just think you are being so incredibly selfish.
4. Can you just do it already? It isn't that hard and I j
Sleep will not find me easily tonight
A kaleidoscope of memories collide and hijack my consciousness
Unable to stop the assault I am forced to lay there and watch
I dont like what I see but I Iike even less how I feel
The reminder of moments gone by tear through the night
Until the noise is so overwhelming I bleed from the pain
I dont miss you and that makes me sad
The callousness of that fact shows me the cruelness of who I am
I simply turned my back and walked away
Where love should have lived lay nothing
The montage of hurt and loneliness no one saw
Gave life to an unyielding beast looking to find her beauty
The shell left behind is still staggering wounded
Imprisoned by the life that left it damaged
Hurt and bleeding its seeking freedom
Talking its way around in circles
It's looking for an exit it cant find
Always searching, but never finding, any hope of peace of mind
The eyes see only the blackened picture past
Crushed by the weight of another tortured creature
Stalked by history, the future gets swept aside
Shadows fall in place of happiness
The dawn of better things sees defeat
Yet in the slaughter on my soul, I hold tight to my dreams of you!
I dont want to damage another person I love
You are incredible the way you are
And I am the seeping darkness infecting everything it touches
I am my own personal brand of disgust
Turning everything beautiful around me ugly
Simply by being me
Your voice travels thousands of miles and reaches out to touch me as your hands cant
Your words caress me and raise my pulse as effectively as your gentle kiss on my body would
I want to feel you close but tonight you lie far away
As sweet nothings are whispered down the line excitement burns through my body
I long to say the words that I have spilled before but I hesitate
Without you beside me keeping me safe I cant seem to coax the words from their refuge
Every day as the sun rises and the evening falls my thoughts are always of you
And this constant desire to have you beside me and be forever in your arms
I can only ho
You tell me nothing will happen ever again and you are quite stubborn in this
And you make me feel bad by saying I frustrate you by not believing you
Then wonder why Im not surprised when you sleep with her anyway
You tell me you want to prove how you feel and will do anything to show me
And still you go and do everything you adamantly say you wont
Then dont understand why I hurt and no longer believe what you say
You tell me you dont feel anything for her anymore and that I mean more
And how quickly you forget your words and stay because you couldnt tear yourself away
Then wonder why I dont want to do th
How do I say goodbye to the one person who has saved my sanity over and over again
The person who stood quietly beside me on the ledge as I looked over and tried to decide which way to jump
Then placed their hand in mine to show me I wasn't alone as I made the leap
How do I tell the one person who carried the lantern that lit the way just how important they are to me
The person who didn't always agree with my every action or decision
But still supported me through each and every one of them anyway
How do I survive without seeing the one person who has sat across from me every single week and simply listened
The person who usually
Everyone forgets
And nobody sees
How it felt
And what it meant to me
But I remember
And I wont ever forget
Your chance has now gone
And you won't get it back
So remember this moment
And all the hurt that you caused
As your one door opened
The rest flew in tatters to the floor
1. What were you thinking. Did you really think no one would say anything. You both deserve everything coming your way. It is about time someone stood up to you. Justice will be ours.
2. You know not everything is actually about you. We both love you and if you actually took yourself out of your own life for longer than a second we actually might learn to like you as well.
3.You promised but all you were doing is lying. How hard is it...really???? I just think you are being so incredibly selfish.
4. Can you just do it already? It isn't that hard and I j
My heart is being crushed by the sheer force of the monster grasping it and squeezing until it has no ability left to beat. The darkness enveloping me is overwhelming all logic and common sense. But the conversation continues to march forward and lands in unison on the ground in calm tones. With no enemy evident and no fight left to be had the reality of the situation burns as brightly as a new day dawning despite the storm of the night before. And with the rise of the new day our marriage starts its long decent to what once was and what could have been.
Im so angry at him. He doesnt even put up the pretence of a fight. No
Thoughts knaw the matter of my mind
Sending poison direct to my heart
Where it bubbles until it spills out in my words
Your frustration does little to ease my worries
As you casually remove yourself from my view
I see darkness come as the tangled vines of truth grow over me
Stalking behind the shades of black, awareness finally dawns
The weight is bearing down and travelling fast
Searching for flesh to wound, it is hunting its next victim
Its next victim of falling in love with you.
Shhhhh .its looking for Me!
As night veils day we begin our dance with the devil by moonlight
The fire that once burnt bright and true now leaves a muddied trail of dirty ash in its wake
I watch as you pour silence onto the flames and I feel you hope for calm
But spiny thorns of jealousy scratch their way through my veins
Tarnishing memories until they sour in my mouth
And sicken my soul with what I have become
Rancid thoughts pollute my head until I no longer recognise my own insanity
I see my distaste for the stranger I have become reflected in your eyes
And I try to claw my way out of the mire that is sucking me down and clutching me tight
Stop your Senseless Droning by Tarnished27, literature
Literature
Stop your Senseless Droning
Please stop your senseless droning, I need you to just stop talking
I dont even remember when we stopped holding hands as we were walking
Dont try to pretend that towards the end you actually did care
Always preferring to leave all our problems hanging around in the air
Our life together seems to have been one big joke
Both of us only really surviving our evenings together by sharing alcohol and coke
Too lazy to even bother, you let me find happiness in the arms of another man
And let me tell you Im going to enjoy him every opportunity that I can
When I look at you now nothing is all I taste
Thinking of everywhere
How do I say goodbye to the one person who has saved my sanity over and over again
The person who stood quietly beside me on the ledge as I looked over and tried to decide which way to jump
Then placed their hand in mine to show me I wasn't alone as I made the leap
How do I tell the one person who carried the lantern that lit the way just how important they are to me
The person who didn't always agree with my every action or decision
But still supported me through each and every one of them anyway
How do I survive without seeing the one person who has sat across from me every single week and simply listened
The person who usually
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Today yet again I was reminded just how short life really is.
Too often good people are taken. Sadly some with regrets as simple as not marrying the one they love.
I have the great relief of being able to say my life recently is completely without regret and with the one I love most in this world who makes me happier than anything I've ever known.
I can only wish the same for everyone.
Love large and without regret!
So my first month back in NZ has now been and gone all in the blink of an eye.
Its been a mix of good and bad.
The bad....well I had to leave all my friends behind, went through my first wedding anniversary as not one half of Tristan and Catrina so that was weird and fucked with my head a little. Some of my friends are going through a tough time at the moment and Im too far away to do anything about it so that makes me feel pretty shit. Still haven't found a place to live so still don't have all my own things around me but so far that's not too depressing.
The good...heaps more to report on there. Job is going really well, really busy an
As the rain falls on my last Sunday in Sydney I have a group of friends around to say goodbye.
I think I've been doing pretty well on the whole 'not going to see these people for ages' front and am pretty impressed that the excitment of returning home has so far been able to mask everything else Ive had going on.
But today there is nothing else left to focus on. The packing is all done, the flight has been booked, resignation handed in and all that is left to do is to say goodbye to the people who have helped make me who I am today and been there through it all.
As I look around at all these amazing people I wonder just how am I going to